Thoughts on SATC
I just saw the SATC movie with my very good friend Jessie, and I have to say I was impressed and enjoyed it a lot. It felt a lot more like watching a season of the show all at once, but that was more than okay by me. Like many girls, I love to sit and watch at Sex marathon, so this was nothing new!
The movie left me with a lot of thoughts, though, which is also something that is not new. :) I’ve been thinking a lot about relationships and love recently, and I think that for the first time in a long time I’m able to really think objectively because there is not some *thing* or a hint of a thing with a guy to warp and bend all my thoughts. Sex and the City has shaped my thoughts about relationships more than any other factor since leaving high school. (My love affair with the show started in it’s last season when I watched a Sex marathon with my sister after a painful break up- the finale had aired the weekend before, so she showed me all the highlights as well as the ending in her sorority room while I cried over breaking up with my high school boyfriend.) The rest of my freshmen year of college included Thursday night Sex and the City nights where my core group of girls would gather, sometime watch episodes of the show, but more often would do something girly and talk about our new escapades with college boys. Those girls on those nights taught me that it was okay to like guys and to go after it and not be ashamed. They also taught me that no matter what happened with the guys in my life, my girlfriends could always make it okay.
I’ve felt a little off since I’ve been in Charlotte and have thought that it had something to do with the fact I wasn’t really dating, but now, after thinking back through the past five years, I have realized it has nothing to do with dating and everything to do with not having my girls to share it with. While my group of friends changed and shifter throughout college, Lindsey, Alice and Liz were complete constants. They have been with my since the first week of college (well, Lindsey MUCH before that even!) and have seen me at my best and at my worst. They were the ones with me on those Thursday nights, and they are the big hole that is missing. Yes, I have friends here. In Jessie, the friend that I saw the movie with tonight, I have an AMAZING friend, one of the best I’ve ever had, but there is something about that group bond that is missing. Watching the movie tonight made me realize that.
Another movie observation- I am truly a Carrie and I have yet to meet a Big, which is perfectly alright considering I am only 23! While most women are a combo of all the girls, watching this movie made me realize I am SO a Carrie and that I want a relationship just like hers and Big’s. I love Steve, I LOVE Harry, and I adored Aidan, but there is something about Mr. Big that has just always KILLED me- I love the man! I also love the way he and Carrie are with each other, I love that they had to make SO many mistakes to get it right, and I love that they ended up being married in a courthouse and eating at a diner to celebrate. Now, my Mr. Big doesn’t need to be able to buy me a big fancy Park Avenue apartment or rescue me in his car with his driver, but he does need to have the arrogance and confidence that is the epitome of Mr. Big. I also need to be the one of can bring that arrogance down- although, as we all learned from Carrie, that is something that is developed.
Anyway, this is more than anyone wants to read, but I just really enjoyed the movie. It was a perfect ending to a story I already adored. :)