I’m watching Amelie- I forgot how much I love this movie and how much it makes me want to do more random nice things for people.
It’s funny, today I’ve had a lot of reminders about things I’ve forgotten about. I had a long talk with my best friend in the entire world. We’ve been best friends since we were in first grade, and even though our lives are taking COMPLETELY different paths right now, she will always be my best friend. Anyway, she has been living in Spain for a year and just having a brief chat with her online about men and relationships and growing up made me realize how much I’ve lost myself this year. I know what I’ve been doing (the whole Teach for America thing…) is important, but I barely feel like ME anymore. Watching all the new corps members (teachers) come to Charlotte for induction this week is also making me realize how much I’ve changed since last year at this time.
Not all of the changes are bad. I’m more mature, I’m more driven, I have more purpose, and I believe I am truly a better person. But I also barely spend anytime getting to know people, have only made a handful of good friends in Charlotte, and feel YEARS beyond 23.
This summer my goal is to get back to myself. There are some silly and trivial things I want to do (dye my hair, get my nose pierced!) that don’t mean a lot but are things I’ve wanted to do, and then there are some more reflective things I want to do. I want to start actually writing in my journal again, I want to catch up with all the friends I have neglected so badly, and once I’m back in Charlotte I want to really work on getting to know some of my sort-of friends here.
I refuse to put this in a to-do list format because are all things that are FUN! They are the things that make life meaningful, I’ve just pushed them too far to the side for too long.